Sanctuary

Counting down the days to the day when I was about to head back home was not a good feeling. I was haunted by many things such as physical work (sorting, packing, shipping) and the emotional roller coaster leaving the place I truly love, the place I'd say is my sanctuary. London is my sanctuary.

I had to throw away many stuff of mine when sorting them out because obviously I cannot bring everything home, even then I thought I should've thrown more stuff. But since I am a hoarder, throwing my belongings away is very hard because I get attached to them. Things that have served me for maybe one, two, or even four years straight. So to just abandon them, it was just terrible. Just like leaving London, where a big mark had been signed across my heart since Day 1 I stepped into that city to study.

Shirt - Cotton Ink

Blazer & coat - Zara

Necklace - From Singapore

Trousers - Major Minor

Socks - Sox Galeri

Shoes - ASOS

Bag - Cupcake

Bracelet - New Look

Photographed by Fitria Tjandra

Speaking of throwing stuff away, I had to throw this bag away too because the both sides of the bottom bit were ripped without me noticing at first. I was heart broken because this bag was love at first sight (as well as my other Cupcake bags). I thought I could fix it if I bring it home, but maybe it was a sign that I shouldn't bring everything that I want or else my shipping boxes can accumulate to 20. So, farewell not only to my Converse, but also my favourite backpack :(

'Til next post!

Analog

Fitria used her analog camera to take these photographs of me. I couldn't love it more. The natural effects from the film such as the green light, waves, and the vintage feel made up the ambiance straight away. I didn't need to pose much for this and the results made it look like they're all natural, as if she was taking the behind-the-scenes of the photo shoot we did before (previous posts).

Photographed by Fitria Tjandra

'Til next post!

These Lights Behind Me

Bear with me. Lately I found there are some posts that needs to be divided into two due to the quantities of photographs, but this time instead of two, I have three versions of the same outfit. My photographer friend was trying different techniques last time so I just went along with her plan. After all, who was I to refuse? ;)

Dress & platforms - ASOS
Necklace - COS

Socks - From Japan

Photographed by Fitria Tjandra

Mind Over Matters

The sound I hear inside my head every second, minute, or hour of every day, it's mine. I have the power of my own happiness, or at least that's what I've heard. I read so many quotes about mind over matters; nobody can bring you down unless you say otherwise, you are what you think, or how your actions come from within your souls. They might be the most cliché quotes, but it is true. Most of the time I over think of what ifs and what will, then when I got too deep I realised I have just wasted my time to stress myself out over unnecessary thoughts. It hit me for a reason or another that I am my greatest enemy.

Dress, blazer & shoes - ASOS

Necklace - COS

Socks - From Japan

Ring - An Aussie brand I forgot

Bracelet - Salvatore Ferragamo

Photographed by Fitria Tjandra

'Til next post!